Hypochodria and Pregnancy

     I suppose in my last few posts I could have been a bit more personal and shared that I am expecting ^_^ 27 weeks with my second child, another girl. Ah, two teenage girls at once, something to look forward to, just hope they take after me and prefer video games to partying. because that is NOT happening :P. but anywho.
    When I was pregnant with my first daughter 3 1/2 years ago, I felt no anxiety, no stress, I definitely wasn't paranoid about every little thing. I was just pregnant, and that was that. I went to my desk job, sat there for 9 hours designing window signs/pump toppers/ and whatever else was needed on photoshop. Then packed up and went home, enjoyed the evening talking to my family and then slept.
    However, this time around I have been one big ball of panic, I'm not sure if it's because I'm deathly worried that something will happen to me and my daughter will be without me, or if I just forgot what it was like to have something feeding off of my body and relying on me. Pregnancy, is an amazing thing. I have never felt such a bond before I became a mother. Maybe it's the fact that while I have two (technically) children relying on me, and I'm desperately missing my husband and am starting to feel like...maybe i can't do it alone?
    That last sentence actually PAINED me to say, I have always been an independent woman, but I can honestly say I never knew what "love" was until I opened my eyes and realized my dream man was in front of me for 8 years. alas, I'm getting distracted.
    Every day for about the past 3 weeks, I have been one big ball of fear. A slight cramp in my leg, leads to a few more cramps, 'oh is that a varicose vein? I haven't noticed them before. do i have a blood clot?' *google* 'oh shit, it's DVT.' now i have never gone anywhere and had a doppler run on my legs yet or anything, i guess i just prefer to stress myself out over thing that I'm sure is NOT the problem. I started taking more potassium and the cramps lightened up, who would have guessed.
    Or maybe I'm about to develop pre-eclampsia, which would definitely end up turning into HELLP syndrome, because I have all the luck in the world. Even though I've always had low blood pressure and even now it's 110/61. I do know, however that i need to calm down, or else my BP will go up and I will land my self in a fine state.
    Also, I'm due to fly soon on a 6.5 hour flight, which we all (should) know that DVT is increased while flying, and pregnant. So naturally I've invested in flight socks, and have been practicing my exercises that i will be doing while in flight.
     Then of course I'm worried about the other things that are 'unlikely' to happen to me. My liver taking a break and being like "hey eff you, hahaaha", wouldn't that just be great. I was completely healthy my first pregnancy, I did have a c-section due to them thinking my daughter was going to be bigger. Which she was nearly 7 1/2 lbs and I'm normally 104 lbs, so she was pretty nice-sized for my body. Afterwards I suffered from PPH and thought I was going to die, I hemorrhaged and lost a lot of blood, had to have a blood transfusion and lived on 3 very strong antibiotics for a week in the hospital. it was horrible.
    I, obviously, recovered and have been doing fine. I do have an arrhythmia issue, which i just found out about a few weeks ago. Which my doctor said (naturally) "i've been living with one and I'm just fine, it's no big thing unless there is something else going on at the same time." SWEET. bah, I just hope the rest of this pregnancy (12 1/1 weeks) goes well. I can't wait until we get to meet the little bundle, and I can go back to having my body to myself. I am finding that my anxiety has been letting up, which is normal for me, it comes in swings. I guess I've already over-fretted everything enough to let me settle down. :D